Saturday, October 5, 2013

October is my heart.

*This is very long, I'm sorry loves.

It's finally October and I can not express how excited I am. This is my favorite time of the year. Do you ever have those moments when you smell something and it just takes you to a feeling? It doesn't remind you of one thing specifically it's almost like your whole mood changes. This happens to me a lot throughout the year when I smell anything pumpkin or pine. Most of my memories of smell come from the fall and winter.  Anytime in the year I smell those things I instantly go to how I feel in those seasons; and I'm just calm. 

October is by far my favorite month. I'm not a huge believer in reading my zodiac every day, but I can tell you I think I was meant to be born in October.  I'm not sure if  you can really use a month as a descriptive quality of yourself, but I do. This month describes me and who I am so well.  If you really know me you know that I'm very quite and very private about most things in my life. I like walking around all alone with my headphones in my ears just feeling the wind. I wear layers and long sleeves all year long. I like to cuddle up by a fire and just read in my sweats until it gets dark at seven in the evening. It's almost like I'm most myself in the Fall. 

My favorite movie of all time is the Nightmare Before Christmas. Which is why when my dad said I would be in Disneyland while all the Halloween decorations were out, I almost cried. I might buy way more Jack Skelington accessories than necessary. While I'm in the park we have the opportunity to stay after hours and go trick or treating. You guys, trick or treating inside Disneyland. My heart is going to explode. 

Since the year I was born I have gone trick or treating every year except one. I'm almost twenty-two years old and I only missed trick or treating the year I turned 20, and only because I was living in the dorms and no one dared go with me and ask college kids for candy.  I have a strange love for Halloween. Sometimes I think it comes a little too close to taking over my love of Christmas.  My mom and I tend to go very overboard when it comes to decorating; I think I get my love of the holiday from her. This year we went to the HOLY COW boutique in Pleasant Grove. I wish I had taken pictures of all the cute decorations we got, I was in my happy place for sure. If you've never been you need to go. Our favorite part might be the smell of the cinnamon rolls through the entire building. I die. Every time my mom and I share a pizza twist and a cinnamon roll. I highly recommend going. The next one is the week before Thanksgiving, and it will be all Christmas themed. 

Speaking of me turning twenty-two; I'm getting old. I know this because I am slowly starting to put everything in my name, and taking on my own responsibilities.  I'm moving into a new house without my family at the end of the year, and starting life on my own.  I know I'll always have them there for me, but this is my first real big step on my own.  Want to know one sure way to tell you are getting older? Birthdays mean less and less about getting clothes and more about asking for gift cards to grocery stores and new pots and pans.  They become less about spending the day with your friends, and more about the time you get with your family.  They become less about wanting to grow up faster and faster, and more about being with your grandparents.  You forget when you are younger that every year you get older, they do too.  I'm thankful that each of my grandparents are still here with me. It is no secret that they are getting older and their time on this earth is getting shorter and shorter.  Here's to the many birthdays I hope to have with them here. 

 I joke with Alex all the time that I am behind by Utah County rules. Our inside joke is that we should be married and on baby number three by now.  October is also very special to me because it's the month Alex and I fell in love.  This year is our three year anniversary and I cannot believe how fast the time has flown. When I met him I was just an insecure freshman looking to make some new friends so far away from home.  Being with Alex has been such a blessing in my life.  I have never been more secure in my life.  He tells me at least once a day how much I should value myself. He reminds me constantly how beautiful I am, but also reminds me that he doesn't have to say to for it too be true.  I can't wait to see what we have ahead of us.  

Long story short, I'm excited for this month. It will be quite the adventure. 

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